You've got a way with me Andra Lee
When you take you take the very best of me
And you don't care cuz I'm not what you wanted
You'd flaunt yourself, not give a damn for me
You've played with my emotions
And then I knew it was all downhill from there
But I know I'll never be as cold as you
You put up walls of gray; blocked me out
Though I still stood there loving you
Trying to break through at least one
I needed to get to you inside those walls
But you just wished me away over and over
Leaving me in tears each time you pushed
And I know that I'll never be as cold as you
You made up all sorts of hateful stories
You insist on pulli
I'm so far from where I started
So far from what I wanted
I'm falling back in time it seems
I've made so many mistakes
And these I can never erase
But I never learn from them either
So what does this tell you about me?
Am I this failure at life...a nobody?
Would you still love me and not give up
If I wasn't just somebody like me?
I'm so far from what I wanted
To be the best I could ever be
To be the first successful in my family
So far from where I started
All the mistakes fill my life with dread
Al the disappointments to people
Especially to those that I love
Everything seems to be broken and dead
And all i want ti for you
The tears keep falling down my cheeks
Even after all of my efforts to dry my eyes
These rainy days just bring streams of hurt
Sadness emanates from within my soul
Andnothing I do ever changes how I feel
No one can make a smile appear on my face
I feel like dying when I think of love
Because it seems I will never have it again
My love for Andra will forever stay
But to her it is dead, as if she never loved me at all
So I sit here alone crying with pain
No one can understand this hurt inside
MY heart is shattered, bruised, and beaten
Can anyone save me or will i forever be Alone?
Can you fix my heart if I let you in?
Will you lov
I like to think of this world as meaningless
To hopefully lessen the amount of hurt it gives me
But I'm not sure my strategy is wroking
Because it seems hurt comes all the same
And sometimes in the most intense way
Life for me has never worked out in my favor
So I'm learning to expect all its unfortunaties
I hate this world because of the pain within me
Is it so hard for you to ask if I'm alright?
Or are you really that heartless and cruel?
I cannot fathom this though alone
The thought of being alive for so long
Because in this world--Nothing is worth it
Nothing is worth living when you are Alone...
I Don't I Can't Remember by LovePainAndPoison, literature
Literature
I Don't I Can't Remember
I don't know where she's gone
I don't know who she is
I can't remember her face
And I can't remember her name.
I don't remember her personality
I don't remember the clothes she wore
I can't remember her family
And I can't remember her smile.
I don't remember how it was
I don't remember if it worked
I can't remember if she loved me
And I can't remember when she left.
I don't remember her feelings
I don't remember her stories
I can't remember her fingers on my skin
And I can't remember her taste when we kissed.
I don't remember how life was with her
I don't remember what she always said
I can't remember who she was
And I can'
Nightmares of Andra by LovePainAndPoison, literature
Literature
Nightmares of Andra
Nightmares come at night
Nightmares know no daylight
Come inside of my head
And you'll know why i choose
To stay awake instead
Sleeping brings her back
But the dreams aren't so pretty anymore
Happiness is what they lack...
Sometimes they feel so real
And sometimes I cannot wake up
My eyes shut tight, numb is how I feel...
Feeling the pain as she stabs me
Slicing my skin so slowly
Drawing out a slow death for her to see...
Nightmares come at night
Nightmares know no daylight
Come inside of my head
And you'll know why I choose
To stay awake instead
I start to plea for my sorry ass life
And yet she doesn't stop
Cutting de
You've got a way with me Andra Lee
When you take you take the very best of me
And you don't care cuz I'm not what you wanted
You'd flaunt yourself, not give a damn for me
You've played with my emotions
And then I knew it was all downhill from there
But I know I'll never be as cold as you
You put up walls of gray; blocked me out
Though I still stood there loving you
Trying to break through at least one
I needed to get to you inside those walls
But you just wished me away over and over
Leaving me in tears each time you pushed
And I know that I'll never be as cold as you
You made up all sorts of hateful stories
You insist on pulli
I'm so far from where I started
So far from what I wanted
I'm falling back in time it seems
I've made so many mistakes
And these I can never erase
But I never learn from them either
So what does this tell you about me?
Am I this failure at life...a nobody?
Would you still love me and not give up
If I wasn't just somebody like me?
I'm so far from what I wanted
To be the best I could ever be
To be the first successful in my family
So far from where I started
All the mistakes fill my life with dread
Al the disappointments to people
Especially to those that I love
Everything seems to be broken and dead
And all i want ti for you
The tears keep falling down my cheeks
Even after all of my efforts to dry my eyes
These rainy days just bring streams of hurt
Sadness emanates from within my soul
Andnothing I do ever changes how I feel
No one can make a smile appear on my face
I feel like dying when I think of love
Because it seems I will never have it again
My love for Andra will forever stay
But to her it is dead, as if she never loved me at all
So I sit here alone crying with pain
No one can understand this hurt inside
MY heart is shattered, bruised, and beaten
Can anyone save me or will i forever be Alone?
Can you fix my heart if I let you in?
Will you lov
I like to think of this world as meaningless
To hopefully lessen the amount of hurt it gives me
But I'm not sure my strategy is wroking
Because it seems hurt comes all the same
And sometimes in the most intense way
Life for me has never worked out in my favor
So I'm learning to expect all its unfortunaties
I hate this world because of the pain within me
Is it so hard for you to ask if I'm alright?
Or are you really that heartless and cruel?
I cannot fathom this though alone
The thought of being alive for so long
Because in this world--Nothing is worth it
Nothing is worth living when you are Alone...
I Don't I Can't Remember by LovePainAndPoison, literature
Literature
I Don't I Can't Remember
I don't know where she's gone
I don't know who she is
I can't remember her face
And I can't remember her name.
I don't remember her personality
I don't remember the clothes she wore
I can't remember her family
And I can't remember her smile.
I don't remember how it was
I don't remember if it worked
I can't remember if she loved me
And I can't remember when she left.
I don't remember her feelings
I don't remember her stories
I can't remember her fingers on my skin
And I can't remember her taste when we kissed.
I don't remember how life was with her
I don't remember what she always said
I can't remember who she was
And I can'
Nightmares of Andra by LovePainAndPoison, literature
Literature
Nightmares of Andra
Nightmares come at night
Nightmares know no daylight
Come inside of my head
And you'll know why i choose
To stay awake instead
Sleeping brings her back
But the dreams aren't so pretty anymore
Happiness is what they lack...
Sometimes they feel so real
And sometimes I cannot wake up
My eyes shut tight, numb is how I feel...
Feeling the pain as she stabs me
Slicing my skin so slowly
Drawing out a slow death for her to see...
Nightmares come at night
Nightmares know no daylight
Come inside of my head
And you'll know why I choose
To stay awake instead
I start to plea for my sorry ass life
And yet she doesn't stop
Cutting de
Current Residence: Missouri Favourite genre of music: Rock Favourite photographer: ?? Favourite style of art: Photography Personal Quote: "You stole my heart, and I can't take it back"
FEARS:
x = Mild
xx = Somewhat
xxx = Quite a bit
xxxx = Pretty bad
xxxxx = Incredible fear
[ ] Acousticophobia- Fear of noise.
[x] Acrophobia- Fear of heights.
[xx] Allodoxaphobia- Fear of opinions.
[ ] Amaxophobia- Fear of riding in a car.
[ ] Androphobia- Fear of men.
[xx] Angrophobia - Fear of anger or of becoming angry.
[ ] Antlophobia- Fear of floods.
[xx] Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single.
[ ] Apeirophobia- Fear of infinity.
[ ] Arsonphobia- Fear of fire.
[ ] Astrophobia- Fear of stars or celestial space.
[xx] Ataxophobia- Fear of disorder or untidiness.
[xxx] Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotten or ignored or f
[x] You have screamed at an inanimate object for "hurting" you.
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle.
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[x] You have ran into a tree/bush.
[x] You have been called a blond.
TOTAL: 6
[x] you know that it IS possible to lick your elbow
[ ] You just tried to lick your elbow (LOL!)
[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star had the same melody
[ ] You just sang them to make sure
[x] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.
TOTAL:
ARE YOU?
1. Perfect?: no such thing as perfect
2. Tall?: no
3. In your pajamas?: yeah actually
4. Left handed?: no
LAST:
1. Friend you saw: been a long time since i saw my best friend
2. Talked to on the phone: i forget...oh yeah, andra sometime last week
3. Person to text you: andra
4. Was today better than the last: not really
FAVORITES:
1. Number: 13
2. Colour(s): crimson and ebony
3. Fruit: pinapple
4. Place: cities.
EIGHT EMOTIONS:
1. Are you missing someone right now?: i'm always missing someone at sometime
2. Are you happy?: mostly
3. Are you sad?: not really
4. Are you bored?: yes
5. Are you angry?: a little
6. Ar